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Post by rumble on Sept 26, 2010 21:36:10 GMT 2
Logan had finished his class for the day, the week, and he went to his usual spot. The crystal like stars were shining forth overhead and his hands were gripping the guard rail overlooking the garden. The moon was half its usual size and he heaved a sigh feeling the chill wrap around him like a unwelcome blanket. There was an absence in his heart like it had been torn asunder.
Three months to this day Jean had been killed by his claws. Her face seemed relieved as the evil she had done suddenly faded into oblivion. Feeling tears come he wiped at them stubbornly and kept his back to the door behind him. "I shouldn't be crying like a damn fool." He said shaking his head irritably.
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Post by rogue on Sept 26, 2010 21:54:46 GMT 2
Rogue had gone to the roof, she knew Logan liked coming here. To clear his head, that much she did know for sure. But once on the roof she heard him, it broke her heart. She didn't know how to approach him, since she didn't want to startle him. Since she did that once and had to borrow his healing ability. She walked over, making sure he could hear her walking. But he also had that sense of smell. She wasn't worried about herself.
"Logan.." She placed her hand on his shoulder. She was a kind person, and protective over those she cares for. She has known him for a few years now, he needed peace.
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Post by rumble on Sept 26, 2010 22:03:51 GMT 2
Logan heard footsteps and sniffed the air. Sure enough Rogue was up on the rooftop with him. I can't let the kid see me like this, he thought. Still, she is far from a kid since she had matured into a fine young woman. She was with Bobby, a kid he didn't like before, but had grown attached to. He could make a fine leader someday, though, he still was a tad sloppy when it came to finishing a mission. Looking over his shoulder he saw the concern in her eyes.
"Hey...what are you doing up?" The Professor was back and rules still applied, hopefully she wasn't caught sneaking up.
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Post by rogue on Sept 26, 2010 22:16:09 GMT 2
She sat down beside him, her eyes looking into his. She stroked his cheek with her gloved hand wiping away a tear. She sighed and didn't know what to really say. It was amazing how love can get from bad to worse easily.
"Logan, ive been worried about you. I like to think we have a special bond, I do love you very much. Your like a father to me. Talk to me, I know losing Jean..." She looked down. "I miss her to, but you miss her more. Because you loved her and she loved you" She said softly.
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Post by rumble on Sept 26, 2010 22:21:50 GMT 2
Logan took a seat beside her on the rail and let his feet dangle over the school. The breeze once again teased his face and he cursed it under his breath. What Rogue said made sense, as they first met each other before seeing the school or the mutants that had saved their necks. Losing Jean...great conversation, but, he supposed it was time to open up to someone.
"Since when did you become mature?" He laughed and looked over at her. "I can't stop thinking about her Rogue. My sleep is disturbed by her face, my claws...they still shine with her blood. I loved her, but, I could never move into her heart long enough because Scott saw her first. Even after Scott was teleported away...Jean wasn't the same with the Phoenix's raw power. I...I can't live without knowing she is down there healing mutants who have gotten weak..."
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Post by rogue on Sept 26, 2010 22:38:49 GMT 2
Rogue listened to him, she could hear his pain. She placed her hand on his, as she looked at him. "Logan I don't know how you feel, id never say that. Your a good man Logan, you did what she would want. No matter how painful, but.." She reached into her pocket and took out a letter. " I have something, I think its the right time to give it to you" she handed him the letter.
"Jean wanted you to have this, she wrote it a long time ago. But she told me to give the letter to you if something happened to her. She did the same for Scott as well' she hoped he would find some kind of peace. She had the letter for a long time, but she didn't know how he would react.
"Logan....
If you are reading this, then I am no longer here. Your a good man, I know how we both feel for one another, a love that was forbidden because of my relationship with Scott. But you, you will always be special to me. If something happens, if something controls me. Please Logan.
I know you will hate that request, but I don't want to hurt anyone. Ever, you know my feelings, I will leave this up to you. Rouge will give you this letter when she thinks you are ready.
With All My Love!
Jean'
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Post by rumble on Sept 26, 2010 22:49:47 GMT 2
Logan raised an eyebrow as Rogue pulled a letter from her pocket. Accepting it reluctantly as it was from Jean, he read the note. Her familiar writing reminded him when she wrote a prescription for his restless night. Choking on his tears he gave the letter back to Rogue, knowing that in the end, she wanted him to be the one to kill her. I wonder if she knew about what she'd do to Scott at this point when it was written, he thought.
"Thanks...I guess I needed that." Logan stared up at the stars and tried to gather his thoughts. "Jean is gone...and she isn't coming back. The hole in my heart from her absence will mend eventually, all you need is time right? I just...I really don't know how to live without her...or to see her everyday in the hall. How do you move on from a love that is taken away from you?"
Logan knew these were difficult questions, and he hated for Rogue to have to undertake being his care taker up here. But...he needed some kind of resolution, a need to move on with his life.
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Post by rogue on Sept 26, 2010 22:59:14 GMT 2
She watched him looking up at the stars again "Logan, the first boyfriend I ever had. I almost killed him, my power came out at the wrong time. He was in a coma for two weeks and not even then, well I'm not sure what happened to him. Since I left home, my parents gun. Before we met I had no one. When I saw you were a mutant I didn't feel like a freak. life goes on. No matter how painful it is, your a good man and you will love again." She said kindly.
"I want you to find peace, Jean would want that as well. So even if it kills me, I'm going to get you happy!" She said with a grin.
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Post by rumble on Sept 27, 2010 1:45:34 GMT 2
"No offense Rogue, but this guy you talk of, I'm not exactly sure you loved him to this degree. Still, what you say about moving on, it sort of makes sense. Jean is in a better place now; having left as Jean, so, I should enjoy what life has to offer me. As far as love goes...it'll take a special someone to get me back in that hurtful game." Logan meant it, seeing how loving Jean, even from afar, left him in a fragile state. He never cried, never lost himself in thoughts like he did now, as much as he could remember from his past.
"You have a life long quest huh? I think you should focus all your energy on your love Bobby, instead of on me. Adults tend to be difficult and someday...you'll understand. So, how is it with icy?"
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Post by rogue on Sept 27, 2010 1:56:55 GMT 2
She nodded to what he said, and wanted to roll her eyes but she didn't . She chuckled a bit at him Looking at him she tilted her head a little bit. "Do not throw your age at me Logan, I maybe only 19 but im not a child, and your not going to get away that easy Logan. You maybe older then me, but I still know enough!" she almost growled. But she heard herself and she laughed.
"We have a special bond, you allowed me to borrow your healing ability that night. I felt more, I never told anyone. I felt your anger but also your pain." She looked down. "Logan, when you helped me...." She looked at him.
"It was then I knew you were a wonderful man, I could have killed you and yet you risked everything for me..."
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Post by rumble on Sept 27, 2010 2:20:18 GMT 2
Logan rolled his eyes as she argued her age. Ok, he thought, clearly she has enough backbone to take me down a notch. Still, I wonder how much she can possibly know? I've been around longer then her, and, I have a lot more...history. Until she looks older and stuff, then I can take her seriously. Right now all I can do is listen to her as she speaks of what we have via bond.
"Rogue...you have potential to be a great X-Man...I mean woman. You have a spirit that can't be holed up, and you have a power that has yet to mature. I hope someday, ok that is a lie, I know you have a great guy right now. Even with the difficulties, he stays by your side because he loves you.
"I hope someday to find that," he shrugged, "but for now I will carry on...because you and this school need me to." Standing up he got down from where he sat and stretched his arms.
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Post by rogue on Sept 27, 2010 2:35:53 GMT 2
She smiled "Ok dad" She said in a loving tone, she looked back up "And as for me and Bobby. I don't know how he can love me. My power, man if I evolve in power I hope to god I can control it. We can't kiss..." She sighed. "Sorry that's the last thing you want to hear im sure" She looked at him, with love in her eyes, "Family is nice where ever you find it" She said softly, thinking. of a poem and actually spoke it out for Logan to hear.
" What hope means
Hope is bright shining light which keeps darkness at the bay
Hope is gentle cold breeze on a hot summer day
Hope is to remain positive when going gets tough
hope is seeking more when others think u had enough
What hope means
Hope is dreaming of tommorow
Hope is simmering under sorrow
Hope is sparkles when tears in our eyes
Hope is a beautiful thing & beutiful things never dies
What hope means
Hope is as light as a feather
Hope keeps all of us together
Hope is ubiquitous and free of cost
hope is the last thing ever lost..... ?
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Post by rumble on Sept 27, 2010 2:53:50 GMT 2
"Nice poem," Logan commented, "though I was never into poetry myself. I figure a book with action will often captivate my interest. I'm not saying your poem is bad, as it holds a lot of meaning in the word 'Hope' and how everyone has a part of it locked up inside of them." Logan scratched at the scruff on his face and placed his hands into his pockets. The weather was nice and reminded him of the part about a cold breeze. Was this damn breeze really hope playing at him?
"Rogue...find ways around," Logan sighed, "I can't believe I'm even talking to you about this. From what I know about love, it is more then lingering eyes and hesitant lips, it is also about your body and and things you can show, things that can be done. My point is, add something spicy into the mix. You are like a daughter to me, or a younger sister, and I know I shouldn't give you any tips on this..."
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Post by rogue on Sept 27, 2010 3:01:08 GMT 2
She turned to face him completely "Family is family and we are family, Everyone is family to me. And it feels wonderful to be able to express yourself. Which is why im here talking to you, most people wouldn't dare talk to you the way I do. I hope you don't think im pushy because I do want your happiness. But enough depressing talk, how's Bobby doing in your class? I was with him when he had to tame a horse" she smiled.
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Post by rumble on Sept 27, 2010 3:11:07 GMT 2
Logan chuckled, she sure knows how to push forward instead of look back. "Bobby and this kid Gabriel are the only two currently in my class. I suppose the rest of the mutants are aiming for another teacher, probably Storm. He was asked to tame a horse, and a trainer was supposed to be out there, must've caught the flu. Anyway it is good that he did this, that way, he is one step closer to erasing all fear from him."
Logan smiled and knew she had to be out there with him. The two lovebirds couldn't be found without the other attached at the hip. "What about your classes? You keeping up with a whole new bag of work on your shoulder? I heard that Storm was teaching you about flying, must be exciting."
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