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Post by katherinepryde on Oct 9, 2010 5:21:49 GMT 2
She thought a moment, "You realize it's a nightmare and let it run its course. Sometimes your greatest fears will be played on by evil and its all an illusion. Conquering it is finding out that its fake and letting go. And knowing that if it isn't an illusion, those you care about can take care of themselves." She smiled and hoped it had helped him at all. She didn't like seeing Bobby in such pain, seeing his eyes hold shadows of fear in them. "I'll always be here, Bobby."
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Post by eskimo on Oct 9, 2010 5:27:26 GMT 2
Bobby sighed and realized she was right. "I think there is only one way to solve the nightmare I've been having. I know it might sound ridiculous, and a tad mean, but I always chase after you when your caught, and I never can rescue you no matter how much I try. In the long run I have to let you be taken, and, perhaps then the fear will stop eating away at me. I love you Kitty, and, if I was stronger I could save you time and time again in the nightmare. Though, what you say is to let the illusion play its course, and since I've been doing the same thing all the time, perhaps I have to mix it up a bit." Bobby smiled weakly and hoped she would understand.
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Post by katherinepryde on Oct 9, 2010 7:12:32 GMT 2
Kitty paused and looked up at him, "Bobby, what if we go to the Danger Room and try out that same scenario? You try different ways to save me and it will go as it does until you get it right. I'd be willing to do that as much as you need to." She thought more on it and found only that she liked the idea more and more. "Yes, I'm not giving you an option. Let's try that. I'm positive it will help you." She leaned up and kissed him on his jaw and lay her head on him again. "It will work.."
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Post by eskimo on Oct 9, 2010 18:31:29 GMT 2
Bobby swallowed nervously as she suggested they run that program. He hadn't entered it into the the main software because he didn't want others to do this one. The loss of a loved one, that could never be saved, was he supposed to jump up and cheer for that? Still, Bobby found that Kitty could be stubborn when she had her mind set on something, so he merely nodded his head. "Alright Kitty, we'll find sometime in our schedules to do that...scenario. Though, aren't you and I swamped with class and an upcoming mission too?"
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Post by katherinepryde on Oct 10, 2010 8:19:13 GMT 2
She smiled and faced him. "Bobby, are you trying to wiggle out of this?" she gave a throaty chuckle and frowned slowly. "You really don't want to do it..." She thought a moment and shrugged, settling back down on his chest. "Okay, we don't have to. It was just a suggestion...I can't think of any other way to fix it from there."
And when she thought of it, she felt guilty. It had seemed easy to her when the roles were as they were. But she imagined herself in Bobby's shoes and shivered. The idea of Bobby being hauled away again and again while working in a simulation would slaughter Kitty's mind in a simulation.
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Post by eskimo on Oct 10, 2010 21:22:20 GMT 2
Bobby smiled weakly and had an apology in his blue eyes. "I am sorry Kitty, your idea holds ingenuity and greatness, but, it wouldn't solve my nightmare. By continuing to try and rescue you I would blow my brain, and not in the best of ways. Can you imagine failing to save a loved one over and over again? Timeless defeat and when you see that person you would never be able to let them go, that or see them as just a mirage. Life is not really fun when a person you see everyday is going to be gone in your mind." Bobby thanked her though for the suggestion.
"Kitty, you ok that I'm not doing it? I don't want to seem rude and just shrug it off, but, you seem like you wanted to do the scenario."
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Post by katherinepryde on Oct 10, 2010 21:56:30 GMT 2
Kitty shook her head, "I'm alright, I understand, Bobby, really I do." She settled back on his chest and thought a moment to herself. Why had she been so eager to do the challenge?
With realization, she bit her lip unhappily at herself. Because she liked the idea of torturing herself over the choice again and again, like a punishment she deserved. It wasn't healthy, and it wasn't right. But Kitty knew it to be true.
"Where'd you get this CD, Bobby?"
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Post by eskimo on Oct 10, 2010 21:59:46 GMT 2
Bobby nodded his head, glad she thought so. If she still wanted to do it, well, he would consider putting the program in himself. There was no point in simply ignoring the nightmare, but, letting things go differently was a suggestion he would follow come his next one. When she asked him where he got the cd he pursed his lips in contemplation and shrugged his shoulders a minute later.
"The cd was got in some store downtown," he noted, "the place sells them for cheap, even those mixed cd's that often give each person a choice in artists and see if one likes them or not. Why...you thinking of going there?" Bobby inquired looking down at her.
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Post by katherinepryde on Oct 10, 2010 22:06:02 GMT 2
She nodded, "Yeah, I love music and this is a good mix." Plus, she hadn't been shopping in awhile and missed getting new music to enjoy. "So, what are some of your favorite bands and songs?" She asked, interested to hear just what was in is head most of the time.
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Post by eskimo on Oct 10, 2010 22:18:50 GMT 2
Bobby shrugged nonchalantly and looked up at the ceiling in thought. "I suppose Green Day and their rebellion songs are often good, like know your enemy, or american idiot. Ke$ha has some kickin tunes including tik tok, I don't know, I have a lot of random tastes that seem to just catch me everytime the radio plays it. What about you?" He asked as he let his finger trail around her arm. Music was always interesting when it just bound two people after a nightmare season.
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Post by katherinepryde on Oct 10, 2010 22:41:41 GMT 2
She smiled at his choices and agreed. "I love Ke$ha's There's a place downtown song, and I'm the same way, anything that hits the radio and grabs me. I really love "Love the way you lie" by Rihanna and Eminem and I adore all of the Fray and One Repubic and Coldplay. And I'm in love with a lot of Lady Gaga and a few rap songs, surprisingly."
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Post by eskimo on Oct 10, 2010 22:52:44 GMT 2
Bobby smiled and then looked over at the time. "Hey it is getting late Kitty, we should probably call it a night. We'll hang out though tomorrow ok?" Bobby stifled a yawn and knew that his Professors tomorrow would not take pity on the fact he was comforting a girlfriend about her nightmare. Feeling himself sink into his bed he tried to keep his eyes open, but, alas he felt slumber win this battle. Sinking into his dreams he thought to confront the nightmare once again, but, something told him that his dream was supposed to happen...that he was supposed to let go of her at one point. I wonder...he thought.
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