So that would make us...? (Cable)

[cable]

many of the x men come back from the dead for some reason or another. Some are brought back by gods some by others powers if the history books are right you bring some one back from the dead. The key to all this is finding the balance. The Phoenix is all about destruction and threw that rebirth you need to become the life harmony and keep the balance once you had that you will have full control of its powers.

You have a good hard and could do a lot of good for the world you just have to believe you can win agenst your inner deamon before it eats you up.

He could tell her horror story's about some of the things that he could do but he needed to hide that form here. she craved a peaceful life that much was true. How many times did she die and come back only to die again. When he died would he be subject to the same fate as so many others? Truth be told he was to suborn to stay dead for long.

[jean]

Jean listened to him, half in fear over what he was telling her and half in gratitude because for the first time, someone was telling her that she wasn't losing her mind. It had been hypothesized for a while now that the Phoenix was a separate part of her mind, an almost separate personality and now she was discovering that it very well had a mind of its own. And it had completely taken her over when she'd committed all those heinous acts. Not that Jean felt she was absolved of the guilt but it was better then believing she was completely at fault.

She almost laughed when he told her that she needed to find peace and inner balance. That sounds a bit ironic coming from the man who is here to warn us that there is a war brewing and that we all must unite in order to fight the menace. I'm living amongst the X-Men again. How is peace and tranquility possible around here? she asked him, her mental voice showing just a tad bit of humor.

If she'd really needed to find peace, this was the last place she should have come back to. Things with Scott weren't good, her friends had more or less shut her out of their lives due to her crimes and even Logan was cold and unapproachable lately. Although she'd put off visiting her parents, an effort to not interfere in their lives again, maybe it was best if she went to stay with them for a while. Or even someplace neutral where no one knew who she was.

The thought was incredibly tempting but there was always something about this place that kept calling to her. It was the only reason she'd come back after waking up this time.

[cable]

Its different for all of us. This is your place and you will find no mater how and when you leave every road will take you here. He walked along and looked at the pond a small smile on his face. his mind drifted back to early times. The phoenix feeds on those dark thoughts for your mind and give you power to act on them tempting you. The question is what are you going to do? You are one of the few people who shape this place more than you will ever know.

Things were shifting more and more with each day and he just hoped he could do enough to change it all. It was a strange time so much balanced on a knife blade

[jean]

Nathan began to walk around, almost as if he couldn't stay in one place for too long and given what little she knew of his past, perhaps that was true. She remained leaned against the tree, though, perfectly still, her lips not even moving as this conversation was happening mentally. They probably looked a bit odd to anyone who happened by, not that anyone had, the two of them, watching each other now and then but never actually speaking. How many conversations had she had with Scott this way in the past?

A part of her longed for those days again, the innocence and easy way they melded together, understanding each other's needs before the other one even was aware of it. Jean knew those days were gone, too much had happened and she wasn't going to pretend that nothing was wrong, not with him, not with anyone. Nathan himself slipped in yet another chink in their fragile relationship, even if he mother looked exactly like her and could have pretended to be her to seduce Scott.

She still couldn't figure out what made her so “special” to this Phoenix. If it was telepathic power it wanted, they had that in spades there at the mansion. Charles was more powerful then she was, at least she assumed he was, there was also Betsy and Emma. Any of them could have been a host so why her? And why did the importance weight so heavily?

So, inner peace and a willingness to cooperate is what is needed to keep this thing from taking me over again? You have no idea how difficult that is right now, Nathan. I'm not sure I can find that balance, not with everything that has been going on, she admitted to him.

It probably wasn't impossible to do, she obviously played some part in his history if he was taking the time to even have this discussion with her. Short of the fact that she was essentially his mother's genetic template.

[cable]

With that i cant help you. Its not my place and it never will be Jean its some thing you must do. I don't have all the answers history not clear on every thing could you tell me the day Hitler thought up the concentration camps but you could find out when he built the first one. Or the Day the man who shoot JFK first thought it would be a good idea?

Weather she stayed her or not it was her choice. He like her and Xavier he could make people think they way he wanted but he did not. In the long run it did not change anything. she could move a mountain with a thought but yet she felt so helpless.

[jean]

She raised an eyebrow at the man. I never asked for your help, Cable. I do realize this is my responsibility and I will deal with it, she replied to him, probably a bit more sternly then she should have.

Really, she'd never shirked from her responsibilities before even if she sometimes wanted to. No matter how much pressure had been put on her in the past, Jean had always risen to the occasion and been there for the students and the X-Men. Her first death and subsequent loss of control over the Phoenix was the only time she'd ever done anything like that and right now, she was just trying to see if all the pieces that her life had become could ever be put back together.

Pushing off the tree she'd been leaning against, she watched the man for a moment longer. He was still a stranger to them but he'd already impacted their lives so much. Because of him, the Brotherhood was now living at the mansion, she'd discovered that she had a clone out there somewhere and she was suddenly a stepmother.

Shaking her head, she said aloud, “I think I'll discuss this with Charles. Or Scott.” Maybe. She wasn't entirely sure she wanted to bring this up to him right now.

[cable]

good i never offered you any help. You should take some time with my father go some place and talk sort out all this before its to late. Your lucky to have each other and that luck may run out one day. The question is, is your mirage worth the fight?

he walked over his eye glowing in this light. " some one told me i should make my self a part of this world and not stay aloof from it. That may be the case but its hard to change decades of training just to let your hair down." for cable the jump from mind speech to normal speech.

[jean]

Jean was a bit surprised that Nathan seemed concerned about her marriage to Scott. If anything, he shouldn't have really cared. All he needed to worry about for his own sake was making sure his mother got to Scott, if she hadn't already done so. It was all sorts of creepy, knowing your clone was out there, wearing your face and possibly doing things in your name. Not to mention the madness that had gone into creating the clone in the first place.

Of course it is, she replied to him. Yes, the marriage was important but was it salvageable? That much Jean didn't know. So much had happened, so much had come to pass to make her think that things were simply too far gone for it to work. Although Jean had never been a quitter in all her life, the mountain of issues that faced her and Scott seemed almost insurmountable to climb.

Then he approached her again and she watched him. “Whoever told you that was right. Look at me. I'm twenty five years old and I've already died twice. While I will apparently come back to life again, you may not have that luxury. I don't care how many decades of war you have under your belt, you're still a man, Nathan. Letting your hair down now and again isn't going to make the problems we face escalate or keep them at bay. The world is still going to be there when you come back and who knows, maybe you'll have someone important to share it with at that time,” she replied softly.

Okay, so she should probably take her own advice but where she had issues that had been stacking up over the last year or so, he had a fresh slate in this time. She believed what she said. He did deserve some measure of happiness no matter his past.

[cable]

"Listen to what your saying you know the answer to your own problem i knew you would work it out. I had some one once but,,, i lost her and it was my fault don't give up on the man you love with out a fight it will burn at your soul till you die. I know from experience. " the sorrow in his voice was clear.

"Yeah maybe i should let my hair down but you of all people should know its not that simple." cable laughed he was getting life advice and she sould like a mouther helping her child out. It was amusing. He was older than her but she was the closest thing he had to a mother figure.

[jean]

Jean listened as he let her into his life just a tiny bit. He'd had someone special before and lost her, blaming himself in the process. It was just slightly ironic that their situations should be similar. Although Scott came back from whatever hell she'd sent him to, things still didn't feel the same as they had before. Not that she expected them to. They had so much to work out together but it seemed they were destined to keep missing one another. When she stopped to think about them, things just seemed too far gone to fix.

But maybe...maybe he was right or she was right or something along those lines. Now that she was learning the truth behind her actions, that it may not have really been her but just herself locked in her body as someone else had control, maybe they could work on things. Jean didn't feel it absolved her of those actions since apparently she did have some control over it all but maybe it wasn't as horrible as she'd been led to believe.

It was confusing enough to give her a headache.

“No, it isn't simple,” she agreed with him, smiling as he laughed. “But perhaps it is worth it. Even for a short time? Even the man who carries the weight of the world on his shoulders needs a rest now and then.”

[cable]

"there your answer fight for it. show him that you are still you. No nothing i simple in this world and for people like us its even more complex. This whole places is a beacon for a complex life and it will never change. As long as humans are afraid of us its only natural and we are the beacon of hope that can change that but we hide in the shadows. We need the world to see you as the x men are destined to be."

[jean]

“Shadows haven't always protected us, Nathan,” she told him as he spoke about them hiding. No, they'd been attacked before simply for being a school that housed young mutants. She still didn't see how drawing all of that out into the light was supposed to be beneficial. It would be akin to sticking a very bright, blinking neon sign in the sky that read Young Mutants Live Here. Attack At Will. It still made no sense to her.

“Just what is the destiny of the X-Men that would lure us out into the public? You know our history, is it any wonder that we do hide?” she asked him, wondering if he could shed some light on this subject because really, she just couldn't wrap her mind around it.

[cable]

"you may never gain the tittle Earths mightiness Heroes. The x men save the world more times than you have fingers and the universe on about five times or so. New york is not the place of the x men. When you find your true home you will be welcome with open arms but that is years away. You do not hide for ever. You will see daemons aliens and things you could dream off. "

He smiled he had to be careful not to give to much away or it would be dangerous push things to fast to far. The world would soon be ready for the x men. "at some point some of you get your own Action figures."

[jean]

The things that Cable was talking about were almost sheer lunacy for Jean. The X-Men not staying in New York? Where on earth would they go? This was where they'd been for over a decade and she saw no reason that they would up and move. Unless them going public had something to do with it. Aliens she could almost see since there was essentially one living in her, feeding off of her powers but demons? And action figures? Oh, dear...

“Never mind,” she told him, holding up a hand in a “stop” sort of fashion. “I really don't think I want to know.”

And she didn't. Knowing the future was all sorts of wrong in a lot of ways and she was already busy trying to wrap her head around all the other things he'd told her during their chat. She didn't want to have to figure out what he meant with all the future talk, too.

[cable]

"thats good because i have no plans on telling you any more." HE smiled a knowing smile, " It may not happen now it may never happen me traveling back has possibly changed it for the better or worse only time will tell. It was a one way trip for me so now i have even more invested in this time." he strolled away from her. "All i will say is trust in your hart."
He looked out on the some of the children playing they one day would have to fight some would die and part of him did wonder if he could stop it?