Time for a Talk (Rogue)

[lycan]

Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
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Faith walked into the dinning room just wanting to eat her quick meal and have some nice and quiet time to herself. She sighed and took a seat out of the way, and away from the main flow of traffic. She needed to think and eat, or she was bound to snap at someone. Literally. She was not someone to trifle with, and she was sure that once word got out that she was Logan’s kid then she would have some other students wanting to test her. Then once they had figured out that she wasn’t one to be messed with, then they would just leave her alone. She sat there thinking and wondering how and if word of who her parent was got out, and just looking at her sandwich and chips on the plate in front of her.

She wondered why she had let herself sign up for so many classes, she was starting to have trouble controlling her anger. She couldn’t afford to loose the lid on it, and was actually glad to take her father’s class. However, she still felt a bit disconnected from others, and the whole idea of a father/daughter relationship was still a foreign concept to her. Granted, the two of them had a talk in the garage the other afternoon but who knew better than what she was feeling than the man she was molded after. A familiar scent drifted to her nose, she immediately recognized it as Rogue’s scent as it had a hint of her father’s about it. What she was having trouble understanding is why the older female mutant seemed to be jealous of her. As far as she knew, she hadn’t done anything against her…

Other person talking
Thinking
”Speaking…”

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Take a last look around while you‘re alive
I‘m an indestructible master of war!

TIME :: Lunch time
TAG :: Rogue
WORDS :: 287
NOTES :: Time to find out why…
STATUS :: Done
LYRICS :: Indestructible by Disturbed
CREDIT :: ABBY!!

[beckii]

Rogue walked to the kitchen with a couple of hot crossaints on her mind. She was starving, and felt like a rather big lunch, breakfast style. She quickly put four crossaints into the oven, and then set about cooking bacon ( covered in barbeque sauce ) and scrambled eggs. Once they were all cooked she put them onto one plate, and put a dollap of butter beside the crossaints. Grabbing her plate, she also grabbed a knife and fork as well as a bottle of pure smooth orange juice. As she walked into the dining room she saw a lot of people already sat down. She noticed Faith instantly, and felt a little bad. After hanging out with Logan at the bar the other day, Rogue had felt bad for feeling jealous of the girl. She didn't know if Faith had noticed but she felt the need to apologise anyway. It wasn't as if Faith could control who her father was, and she was sure Faith wasn't even trying to steal Logan from her as a father figure anyway.

Inhaling a deep breath she walked over to Faith's table and sat down, making sure her breakfast was settled before looking up at the girl.

"Look... ah... Ah dunno if ya noticed but... ah've been feelin'... kinda jealous. It seems immature now, and even did then, but ahm sorry. Its just... for a while it was just meh and Logan. He was, is, like the dad ah never had. We came here to the mansion together. He saved meh life a few times, and ah've always had his back. Ah thought... when ya arrived and ah found out who ya are, ah felt jealous. Ya related to him by blood, and ah hated that. Ah thought ya would take him away from meh. Ah hung out with him at a bar lately, and he made meh realise we would always have the relationship we have, regardless of what else happens in meh life, so ah feel the need to apologise, even if ya didn't notice. It was awful of meh."

[lycan]

Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
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Faith was sitting in her seat quietly munching on her meal, and also paying attention to her surroundings. She was always ready for trouble, a lesson that has been beaten into for as long as she could remember. So she knew when someone approached her, how close they got, what they had for lunch, and all that. However she wasn’t expecting the one female that actually did come up to her and sat down at her table. Last she knew was that the older mutant was jealous of her.

"Look... ah... Ah dunno if ya noticed but... ah've been feelin'... kinda jealous. It seems immature now, and even did then, but ahm sorry. Its just... for a while it was just meh and Logan. He was, is, like the dad ah never had. We came here to the mansion together. He saved meh life a few times, and ah've always had his back. Ah thought... when ya arrived and ah found out who ya are, ah felt jealous. Ya related to him by blood, and ah hated that. Ah thought ya would take him away from meh. Ah hung out with him at a bar lately, and he made meh realise we would always have the relationship we have, regardless of what else happens in meh life, so ah feel the need to apologise, even if ya didn't notice. It was awful of meh."

She polished off her meal, and listened to Rogue speak. She didn’t say a word, but just listened and waited until the older girl was done. She looked at her and gave her a smile that she hoped to say ’No hard feelings’. ”I did know you were a bit jealous from that meeting you had called to announce that you are the Head of Students… Well, I’m glad one of us was jealous. I mean you had to have something first before you could be jealous of it right?” She responded, and turned her head before closing her eyes to hide the emotion that she was feeling. It wasn’t jealousy, but more like sadness. The way she apologized to her, sounded like she had someone who cared for her to protect her. She knew she wasn’t that lucky or fortunate. She didn’t have a father or a mother, figure or other wise, growing up. She was of course just trying to find out who she was, and more importantly where she came from. Much like someone who was adopted at birth and never knew their true parents. But in her case, she never experienced what it was like to have any parents. So this whole relationship with Logan was something new to her as well.

Other person talking
Thinking
”Speaking…”

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Take a last look around while you‘re alive
I‘m an indestructible master of war!

TIME :: Lunch time
TAG :: Rogue
WORDS :: 450
NOTES :: So not the fearful war machine she was trained to be…
STATUS :: Done
LYRICS :: Indestructible by Disturbed
CREDIT :: ABBY!!

[beckii]

"He's a good guy Faith. Ah can tell he's already very fond of ya. He's just as protective of ya as he is of meh. Hey, guess that kinda means we're sisters in a way. Oh, and if its any consolation, ah have no idea who my biological parents are. The parents ah was raised with were nice until my mutation kicked in. Then they were terrified of meh. People are still terrified of meh. No one realises it but they all flinch if they get too close and tend to give me a wide berth instinctively. Ah guess what ah mean to say is, ah kinda know what it feels like to be lonley, and isolated, especially when it comes to other people. So, if ya'd like to talk... I'm here. Otherwise we can just be in each others company and not talk. Logan and ah have done that a lot. Sometimes its just having someone there, even if nothing happens."

Rogue offered, a small smile playing on her lips. She really did want to be Faith's friend. She seemed really nice, ,and well, if Logan had taken a shine to her then maybe Faith would too. After all, it did seem ferals seemed to be drawn to her, and her to them. She then remembered X. She had never gotten his real name, and remembered Logan saying Faith had been caught up in that Weapon X project. Poor thing. She looked so young. Rogue couldn't help but wonder if Faith knew who X was though. She didn't want to bring up an awful topic though. In the end, Rogue bit her bottom lip and decided not to ask. She just couldn't bring pain on anyone else. Especially intentionally. She started eating her crossiants, digging into them with enthusiastic fervour. It wasn't long before she had devoured her meal and was now drinking the last of her drink. When it was all done she had a content smile on her face.

[lycan]

Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
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Faith couldn’t let Rogue see her upset, cry, or anything else other than what she was raised to be. A warrior. They didn’t show any emotions other than instilling fear into their enemies. It was what she was raised to do, and knowing anything else is foreign to her. She considered anything else a weakness, and she knew she can’t show weakness. Period. Not even the occasional slip like she trying to avoid now. She didn’t understand this, nor did she think she would ever want to understand why she has these emotions.

"He's a good guy Faith. Ah can tell he's already very fond of ya. He's just as protective of ya as he is of meh. Hey, guess that kinda means we're sisters in a way. Oh, and if its any consolation, ah have no idea who my biological parents are. The parents ah was raised with were nice until my mutation kicked in. Then they were terrified of meh. People are still terrified of meh. No one realises it but they all flinch if they get too close and tend to give me a wide berth instinctively. Ah guess what ah mean to say is, ah kinda know what it feels like to be lonley, and isolated, especially when it comes to other people. So, if ya'd like to talk... I'm here. Otherwise we can just be in each others company and not talk. Logan and ah have done that a lot. Sometimes its just having someone there, even if nothing happens."

She listened to her talk, and she swallowed the emotion that welled up in her throat at what she had heard the other girl say about how Logan seems to feel about her. And she wouldn’t know a thing about being part of a family, and so she wouldn’t know how other family relationships work. She truly didn’t want to mess anything up, now that she has a chance to experience it. ”Rogue, I don’t know what all happened to you in your life. I’m not going to pretend I do know. But from where I’m sitting, you had one lucky childhood. I would give anything to have parents, perhaps then I wouldn’t have been so cold and calculating. Two things that made me good at what I was conditioned to do.” She said, letting her know that it wasn’t all that bad for Rogue growing up. ”As for the other, I’m not sure. In case you haven’t realized, I’m pretty new to this whole family and social thing. I don’t want to ruin it by doing something stupid…” She added truthfully. She was extra careful to not to mention too much of her past, for if she did she was afraid of hurting someone.

Other person talking
Thinking
”Speaking…”

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Take a last look around while you‘re alive
I‘m an indestructible master of war!

TIME :: Lunch time
TAG :: Rogue
WORDS :: 460
NOTES :: She is really trying…
STATUS :: Done
LYRICS :: Indestructible by Disturbed
CREDIT :: ABBY!!

[beckii]

"Logan wasn't good at any of it. He isn't good at emotions even now. Its funny how he is still the same Logan, and yet changed, from the Logan ah met. He was a lot like you in a way. He was cage fighting when ah met him. You should see him do it sometime. Its very impressive. Anyway, ah was sat at the bar, watching him, and when it was over he came to sit beside me. He didn't even acknowledge me, even though ah was pretty much staring at him. Eventually ah turned away. Long story short, he ended up leavin' and ah followed him. Ah just kinda felt this draw to him. Still don't understand it to this day. Ah snuck into the back of his trailer after he got into the truck. With his senses, it wasn't long before he knew ah was there. He stopped when he found out, chucked me out, and ended up driving off. He didn't get far though before stopping, and he let me ride with him. We've known each other ever since. Point is, he was closed off, wild, impulsive, didn't trust a soul, and well, a real man's man in a way. Ah broke him down and got him to open up, and ahm gonna do the same with you. He's a guy, and if ah could get through to him, then ahm sure it'll be a piece of cake with ya. So don't worry about any of it. Logan learnt, and ya can learn too. Its not hopeless. Besides, ya can't be that cold if ya still talking to me, right? If ya were, ya would be giving me glares, maybe slicing me open, and be with the Brotherhood."

Rogue responded softly. She touched Faith's hand briefly, squeezing it, before letting go.

"Besides, the way ah see it, ya can't let bad things control ya. Ah know meh ability and your past ain't the same. Even so, meh ability... whenever ah have skin to skin contact ah drain the energy of people, their memories, and powers if mutant. Ah can put them in comas if ah hold on to long, and have done so - by accident, and ah guess ah could kill if ah held on until... ya know. Anyway, point is, ah was so terrified of meh ability, ah'd seen so many bad things because of things ah had done without even wanting to, that as soon as the cure came out, ah took it. Ah took the easy way out and let it control me. So much so, when the cure wore off, ah broke down. After a while ah realised, my power is a part of me. ME. The power isn't me. It is just a part. So right then and there ah decided ah wouldn't let it control me. Ah'd move on with meh life and do the best ah could with it. Faith, ya don't have to let ya past control ya. Ah know bad things are hard to forget, and ya don't need to, but ya can't let it keep having an effect on you. Ya are here. In this mansion. Ya have a fresh start with your own biological father. Ya have a family, and in a way, we are sisters. Ya can be a whole new person. So ah think ya should decide exactly who ya wanna be and be it. Do what ya wanna do. You have fresh choices and ya whole life ahead of you. Ya don't have to be whatever your past has forced ya to be back then."

[lycan]

Every broken enemy will know
That their opponent had to be invincible
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Faith listened to Rogue talk about her father. She didn’t know what to think, but she knew that he was like that. Her file had said so, but it was so outdated that Rogue wasn’t mentioned in it the least. She even had to fight her way out of places before, and the result wasn’t pretty. She had returned to the people who were charged with bringing her back to the facility covered head to toe in blood. Not one drop of it hers, but all the people she had to slaughter to escape. Then she snapped her head up in surprise when the older mutant mentioned breaking her father down and got him to open up, and then it was declared Rogue was going to do the same with her. She clenched her jaw not wanting the older girl to know about her past, more importantly she didn’t want to relive it by telling her. Then she reached over a gloved hand and touched her hand briefly and squeezed it before letting it go.

"Besides, the way ah see it, ya can't let bad things control ya. Ah know meh ability and your past ain't the same. Even so, meh ability... whenever ah have skin to skin contact ah drain the energy of people, their memories, and powers if mutant. Ah can put them in comas if ah hold on to long, and have done so - by accident, and ah guess ah could kill if ah held on until... ya know. Anyway, point is, ah was so terrified of meh ability, ah'd seen so many bad things because of things ah had done without even wanting to, that as soon as the cure came out, ah took it. Ah took the easy way out and let it control me. So much so, when the cure wore off, ah broke down. After a while ah realised, my power is a part of me. ME. The power isn't me. It is just a part. So right then and there ah decided ah wouldn't let it control me. Ah'd move on with meh life and do the best ah could with it. Faith, ya don't have to let ya past control ya. Ah know bad things are hard to forget, and ya don't need to, but ya can't let it keep having an effect on you. Ya are here. In this mansion. Ya have a fresh start with your own biological father. Ya have a family, and in a way, we are sisters. Ya can be a whole new person. So ah think ya should decide exactly who ya wanna be and be it. Do what ya wanna do. You have fresh choices and ya whole life ahead of you. Ya don't have to be whatever your past has forced ya to be back then."

She waited and listed to her talk until she was certain the older mutant was done. She couldn’t help but smirk at her and chuckled a bit at the advice she gave. She then reached out and gave the same hand touch that she had received just moments ago, but this time she held on a bit longer. It was as if she was saying this was going to be hard for her, but she was going to do it anyway. ”Rogue, I know all that you have told me about choices. The problem is not letting the past control me, it is my past catching up and finding me. The people that raised me don’t want me away from them. They will never let me go, so I know for a fact that they are out there looking for me. They won’t rest until I’m locked back up with them again, most likely nearly dead when the finally do lock me back up…” She looked away for a moment to calm herself back down to a manageable level, and then looked back toward Rogue. ”As for the fresh start, I’m trying. The thing is that I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to be a daughter, or a sister. I don’t know how to be a part of a family. I’ve only known how to kill and receive pain. Granted I don’t want it to be like that, but I also don’t know how to change that part of me. It lives so close to the surface, it is terrifying…” She finally confided in the other girl. She scoffed in her mind, as she realized that she was right when she said she was going to break her down and make her open up. But there was just too much that she couldn’t share with her, with anyone.

Other person talking
Thinking
”Speaking…”

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Take a last look around while you‘re alive
I‘m an indestructible master of war!

TIME :: Lunch time
TAG :: Rogue
WORDS :: 786
NOTES :: What do you know, it didn’t take long!
STATUS :: Done
LYRICS :: Indestructible by Disturbed
CREDIT :: ABBY!!

[beckii]

"Don't worry about that Faith. Even if they do manage to find ya, ya have all of the Xmen here to protect ya. There are so many mutants here, students and teachers alike. We look after our own. Ya one of us, and as such, we'll protect ya with everythin' we have. Faith, ya ain't alone. None of us are. Thats why we are all here. Not only to control her powers, but to be in an environment thats normal, where we can all socialise, where we can all be safe. This place right here is the safest place anyone can be. Ah was taken by Magneto, but Logan find meh, as well as the rest of the Xmen, and they saved me. The Xmen went to Alcatraz, and we protected the humans as well as saving the mutant Magneto's army wanted to destroy since he was being used as the source of the cure. Logan ran off to find his past, and the Xmen went after him to protect him. We look after our own, regardless of their past. We have to stick together in this day and age. Ya belong here, and even if ya end up leaving here to make ya own way in life, ya can always rely on us. We are always here to help, so ya don't have to worry about them gettin' ya again. Ya can relax. We've got ya."

Rogue spoke softly, trying to reassure Faith she didn't have to be scared any more. No one would let anything happen to her. Every one of the mutants at the school - except the Brotherhood most likely - would protect her with all they had, just like they did with everyone else at the mansion. They even protected those who didn't live here nor did they know personally. It was just what they did. Keep the peace, save those who needed saving, and protecting those who needed protecting, regardless of gender, skin colour, race, human or mutant.

"Just be yaself Faith. Relax. Find out your likes and dislikes. What food ya like, what games ya like, what television shows ya prefer, what hobbies ya like, and have fun. Ya know what ah do? When ah feel stress, or scared, or angry, ah go to the danger room and do a solo session or go to the gym. Ah work off all that anxiety until ah can finally feel at peace. Try doing something a normal girl ya age would do. Dress up, try out make-up, eat tons of junk food, watch movies until really late, gossip, and just make up for the lack of a normal childhood ya had. Ahm sure there are tons of things ya always wanted to do but never got the chance. Now is the time to do it. Make up for lost time. Ahm ya friend. Ahm here for ya, and ahm sure once ya let others get to know ya, they'll be ya friends too, and ya can finally just let everythin' go. Theres nothing special ya need to do to be a friend, sister, or daughter. Just be ya self. Who ya are meant to be. Let go of all the bad, and embrace just who ya wanna be. Love comes naturally. Its pure instinct, and ahm sure out of anyone ya are the most intune with instincts."

Rogue encouraged. Glad the girl was opening up.